Sunday, April 13, 2014

One day I'll have a life again

So it turns out that the combination of pregnancy, huge scary financial exam, new (very intense) job, and new puppy have proven to be a little overwhelming for me. I'm also a bridesmaid in a wedding next month, so some of the wedding-related activities (while very fun) have taken up any small scrap of free time that I may have otherwise had recently.

I'm really only posting now to assure my readers that I am very much alive. Just very stressed out and busy!

Today was one of my few free days that I've had, and I took the pup on a long walk with my girlfriends. It was delightful and much needed.

At any rate, here are some photos from the last few weeks/months of my life.

Once my test is over, I anticipate posting a lot more. Jay and I are also planning another trip, likely during the month of June, although I don't know where we're going yet. More to come!

And we found out a few weeks ago that we'll be having a boy blobfish. I'm quite excited, as this means that I may get away with only having one kid! 

More to come when I find time... I have about two weeks left to take my test by the first imposed deadline. I'm still not scoring quite high enough at the moment to feel comfortable with it. Fingers crossed that the next week of studying greatly improves my scores!

Tuesday, February 25, 2014

Diaper Drive

I've been meaning to post about this for the last week and have either not had time or forgotten every time. Sorry, Jackie!

Anyway, my friend over at Muddling Momma is in the midst of a diaper drive... Her goal is 3100 diapers by the end of the month. 

I'll edit this later, since I'm posting from my phone and I'm sure this looks like crap at the moment... But I had to do it while I was thinking about it!

So check out Jackie in my links, or check out her post on this worthy cause!

Monday, February 24, 2014

Timing isn't everything!

I wrote this post on December 27th, the day after I wrote this one. So much happening, indeed... and the biggest news, I couldn't even share.

The reason for the late posting is because I just found out that I'm pregnant, but obviously didn't want to share the news so early with the whole interwebs. I have this post scheduled for February 22nd, which is the beginning of my second trimester - allegedly past the danger zone February 24th, around the time that I'll be getting my nuchal translucency screening back, and also about the time we'll be "Facebook Official." However, I wanted to post now, early in my pregnancy, before I forget this crazy week I've had. Because I've already discovered that pregnancy brain thing is not a myth. I feel stupid. And I also feel a little sorry for those other mothers who I rolled my eyes at when they jokingly referred to their baby brain. It seriously feels like this kid is sucking out my brain cells and will to live already.

Oh and did I mention that I'm feeling guilty after just reading Kelly's post where she says: Fact: I think almost every blogger I follow and half friends back home announced they are pregnant this fall or just had babies. While I am thrilled for y'all, I have to admit, this was the first time I felt a twinge of jealously that I don't have kids.

Sorry Kelly! :(

I'd taken tests on Friday (20th) and Saturday (21st), since I was technically late by that point. We had our Ugly Christmas Sweater party on Saturday, of course. Where I definitely drank too much and ate raw oysters. All good things for baby Lerch, you know. But sometimes I've been a little late, so I thought that maybe this is one of those months.

On Sunday, I took four tests. The second lines were pretty faint, but they were there. Of course, Jay was at work, so I didn't think it was appropriate to text him a picture.

See, I bought these tests back in June. I went off the pill earlier this year when we went to Australia. We decided at that point we weren't trying per se, but we also weren't preventing. When we started diving this summer, we were doing a quasi-Catholic thing for prevention. Then I told Jay that I wanted to wait until our trip to the DR to start "trying" or at least to stop quasi-preventing again.

On Monday, I went to the drug store and bought tests to confirm for sure.


Oh, and then I got a new job. We were hoping to wait until around May to get pregnant. I had literally given my notice last Friday. If this had happened a month earlier, I probably would have stayed with my current employer. With the new position, maternity leave could be taken AFTER my first year of employment to be paid at a disability rate. Well, shit. Knowing that there was a possibility of getting knocked up before that year was over, I'd asked about this already and my new boss said that it wasn't a problem, but that the time off just wouldn't be paid.

If I were staying at this job, this is the exact time we wanted it to happen. Timing in our relationship has always been comical... the day that Jay proposed to me was also the same day that we were in a car accident with a tractor in Ireland. True story! Also, Jay's sister Colleen has been present for all of these moments = our engagement, our wedding, and then finding out we were pregnant. I'm pretty sure that she needs to move to Maryland and help us out with this kid.

The pregnancy is also the reason that we decided that we can't wait much longer for our dog. This is our reason that we suddenly became very impatient to get a dog. I'm hoping that Ernie is understanding. Jay is planning to call him and tell him that we're expecting. In fairness, we did tell him back when we visited in July that we were planning to start a family in the next year. Because the last thing I want to be doing when I'm huge or caring for a newborn is housebreaking a new puppy. 

How am I feeling about all of this? At the moment, I am mostly terrified and resigned to my fate. I'm only 5 weeks pregnant (which is something like 3 weeks for real pregnant), but I'm already experiencing mood swings, sore boobs, nausea, exhaustion, and the worst, which I never knew was even a symptom - lower back pain. Which of course I can only take Tylenol for. Some of these things are supposed to go away by the 2nd trimester. I am really looking forward to it! 

Jay, of course, is ecstatic about the pregnancy. He really wants someone to play with. I know he'll be an awesome dad. 

Other impressions: I think I'm having a girl. Don't ask me why, and I know that it's crazy early. The only thing I have to go on is my gut instinct and also this Chinese Gender Predictor. Honestly I'd be happy either way. I always thought I wouldn't want a girl, but now that I'm actually pregnant, I just think of the relationship I had with my dad and I want Jay to experience that same kind of thing.  

I am also happy to find out that I apparently don't have fertility issues, because I know so many women that had problems conceiving (or can't get pg at all), including some in my family. I mean, I've been on birth control for the better part of my life, and I'd like to think that careful planning and birth control pills weren't a total waste.

So 2014 is shaping up to be an interesting year. I was really hoping to meet up with my Aunt Nancy for Oktoberfest in 2014. It looks like that won't be happening now, since I have to take my maternity leave unpaid. Otherwise, I'd probably see what it's like to travel with a one-month old to Europe! 

So that is the exciting news. Stay tuned for more updates. 

Don't worry, I'm not planning to post copious amounts of crap about my pregnancy or kid. Obviously my life will change, but I am hoping to still be awesome and not have my child totally consume my life.

Sunday, February 23, 2014

Another Reason I haven't posted much

Is because I'm ridiculously tired. All. The. Time.

This is the health thing I referred to in my last post. I brought back a parasite from the Dominican Republic!

Sunday, February 16, 2014

Still alive... barely!

So the new job, new puppy and studying have been taking a toll on me. There are also some other things going on, health and family-wise. So add all of those things together and the blogging just hasn't been happening.

One day each week I have a 12+ hour day where I go for work and training in another office. So there is the high intensity of my new position, an average of two hours a night studying for my Series 7, the puppy and trying to eat dinner. And family drama. And trying to still have some time for my husband. Oh, and a lot of insomnia. By the weekends, I am completely drained. Eventually I will attain the knowledge I need, but there are a shit-ton more products than I'm used to - even though I am experienced in the field, it is way more intense than my old positions. Part of me is wondering what the hell I was thinking, but on the other hand, I am being challenged and I know I'll never get bored. There will always be something new to learn!

This has been my mantra recently.

All of that said, the last month has more or less sucked, to be honest. The weather has also not been helping much... all I want to do is hibernate. Between the weather and being tired from the studying/job/puppy/insomnia, I've been anti-social. Going out or seeing people is the last thing I feel like doing right now... if I have any "free" time, I'm spending it napping (with the puppy, that's more attempting to nap) or hanging out with Jay.

And this. I must be mindful of this. I'm feeling very unbalanced in my life right now. I've never tried meditation, so I think I'll be giving it a try. Perhaps it is what I need! Here's hoping for a more upbeat post next time.

Thursday, January 23, 2014

Has it been two weeks??


So sorry! I am still alive, barely. The last two weeks have been a whirlwind... first, wrapping everything up at my old job, taking care of the puppy, then I got sick, sleeping, sleeping, sleeping. Puppy biting everything. Puppy housebreaking. Puppy needs attention. More attention. MORE ATTENTION!! Why are you looking at your phone? I will bite it! BITE BITE BITE! Whine whine BARK! Throw the ball, THROW THE BALL!!!

Loki is living up to his name. Jay says it's all my fault.

No, I will not eat the rest of my food, I want to play. I will grab your pant leg and pull. Don't even think about folding laundry! I will steal your socks.

You will take me outside, I will pee. Then I will come inside and pee again, just to spite you.

It's a damn good thing the little bastard is cute, because I have wanted to strangle him nearly every day. No more puppies. Ever.

I've equated it to having a rabid two year old on crack with ADHD and VERY sharp teeth.

People are like, "Awww, it's just like having a baby."

Umm, no. At least a baby takes lots of naps and wakes up crying every hour or two. You feed it and change its diaper and it goes back to sleep. With a baby, you don't have to keep taking it outside in 10 degree weather and 6 inches of snow. And then wait for it to go potty. And repeat once every hour or two.

This little jerk takes maybe two naps a day, half an hour each, and you'd better nap while he does. I try to wear him down by taking him to the park. He'll take a mile or two mile walk, start to whine when he gets tired. He'll sleep in the car for the five minute ride home, wake up, then proceed to run around like a crazy dog, biting pant legs, fingers, and anything else he can get his sharp puppy teeth around.

When we're home, he wants to play constantly. He will play fetch for hours. He does not have an off switch. After a half hour or 45 minute play session, I will want to take a break. You know, to eat. Cue the whining. And the barking. And the biting. And the chewing. GAHHH!!!

I don't know what to do! I feel bad locking him in his crate, but he just won't sit still and chill out with me. Toys only pique his interest for a few minutes, then he's off on his next adventure of chewing power cords and table legs.

So let's just say that my week off hasn't exactly been relaxing. I've also been studying for my Series 7 exam. Talk about dry material... it's a bit like reading the phone book. Oh well, at least I'm making progress. My test score has increased by 2 points so far this week.

So that's what is going on. I probably won't be blogging quite as much until my life gets back under control. Once the puppy is housebroken and once I pass my Series 7 exam, I will be blogging much more frequently!

Friday, January 10, 2014

Loki is here!

We tried to get Loki to choose his own name. Jay threw a treat on the floor, and so did I. We decided that whichever treat he ate first would be his name - Jay's treat would be Cinder, mine would be Loki. 

So of course he ignored the treats until Jay pointed them out. He did point his out first, but Loki ate my treat first. I think it was more of Jay giving in than anything. So I guess this means that our first child will be named Cinder. :-P

Cinder had been growing on me, but I still think Loki will be a better fit.

Picking up Loki at the airport... poor little guy. Took us a while to figure out the correct Cargo space. For the record, if you are picking up a puppy from BWI that flew Delta, you will go to Building B, Door 26 or 27. The chick in there was jamming out to some Evanescence and bore a strong resemblance to Amy Lee. Maybe she took some time off from touring to work pet cargo?

He refused to come out of his crate into the cold, or to step onto the cold parking lot. Ultimately we put the kennel into the back of the car with the seat down and his bed in front of it. As soon as I buckled up, he came right out and sniffed around his bed. Guess he is not a fan of the cold!

Home safely!

Loki loves his new Kong toy

Loki in puppy jail. He got stuck under the table and couldn't figure out how to get out. It was ridiculously cute.

Last night he hardly cried at all, probably because he'd had such a rough day and was tired. He went to bed at 10:30 and started whining to go out around 5:15 this morning. No accidents in the crate, either. So far, so good!

All of that said, I'm pretty tired today because I woke up at the slightest noise. I was worried about waking up to take Loki out during the night. Turns out that I had to pee more times last night than little Loki!

Tonight we are having our first visitors and tomorrow we are going to the vet!